"I'd make a deal with the devil if he came up to me, I am desperate, dishonorable, worthless, and weak"
Forever Faded was actually the name of the first band I was ever in during high school. We were terrible. It was the first time I realized that music was something I wanted to be involved with for the rest of my life though.
At the time this song was written however, I was beginning to feel like even music might not be enough to make me happy, and this one particular line I've highlighted really shows where my mindset was at the time. I felt completely worthless and would literally do anything to not feel that way anymore, or ever again in the future.
lyrics
I had just begun to discover
The rebellion of truth
A young boy lost
Caught up in the haze of youth
I was searching for an escape, for a spark
A place to lay my weary head and rest my heavy heart
I found it amongst the waves of sound and crests and troughs
A way
Cause all I ever wanted was a way to ease the pain
To ease my restless mind and have all my demons slain
Beneath a sea of frequencies I hope to remain
The only way I know to drown the feelings away
I had just begun to discover the true meaning of the revolution
Lost beneath the meaningless words and elocution
I am tired of subtlety and ambiguity
I'd make a deal with the devil if he came up to me
I am desperate, dishonorable, worthless, and weak
I'd give up all my dignity for
All I ever wanted, a way to ease the pain
To ease my restless mind and have all my demons slain
Beneath a sea of frequencies I hope to remain
The only way I know to drown the feelings away
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